Ello…. I am pretty excited today… I am officially gonna lead a group to the night safari… *yays*…

Am feeling pretty nervous but excited… hopefully the older guides will help me along the way… got the uniform all ironed out and will leaving office at about 5 so that I can be there on time… don’t know what I am going to say… gotta do my research and write the things I wanna talk about… gotta remember to bring pens as well as a notebook so that I can jot stuff down…

Anyhoo, I don’t think I can blog much… way too excited…

Enjoy your weekend people….

Toodles

I have decided…. I am not going to enter into a relationship till I sort my life out… I hate being pressurized into anything and this is one of them… my priority is to get myself licenses sorted out before anything else…

I have been putting off my plan to leave the country as well… gotta get that sorted out as well… being in a relationship would mean I have to put in time and effort to meet and to chat… which is something I don’t have the time for…

I am too busy with guiding and with my job plus my dogs… I don’t think being in a relationship would be the best for me as this moment of time… I do love the idea of being in a relationship but I don’t have the time and energy for it…

I love my freedom and I don’t wanna have anyone over my head controlling my lifestyle or restricting me in any way… No, it is not about the clubbing or the pubbing... No it is not about me having friends placed as my top priority… why must everything I do has to about something/someone else??? Why can’t it ever be about me???

I need “me” time without anyone questioning me… I think I deserve it… it doesn’t matter who or what I choose to spend it with… I need time… what may seem to you to be a total time waste may mean something for me… as the saying goes, “ one man’s meat another man’s poison”… the same thing applies here…

Sure, I do envy those who are in a relationship right now… I am happy for them and their decisions; they have made the step after careful consideration…

I, on the other hand, am still unsure… being single means I am responsible for myself only and no one else… no one to report to, no one to answer to, to one to justify myself to… if I wanna do anything, it is to please myself only…

So from now on and for ever more, I declare myself married to myself and no one else… hahahahahaha….

Happy wedding day to me…

For all those who write my pissed off post yesterday, thanks for the concern… I am all better… just needed to vent out my frustration… I am all better now… coz it’s Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Have recently come to a conclusion on how my brain works…

Monday – blues (brains in between LaLa Land [90%] and reality [10%])

Tuesday – blues and reality (brains in between LaLa Land [10%] and reality [90%])

Wednesday (midweek) – reality 100%

Thursday – brains in between LaLa Land [30%] and reality [70%]

Friday – brains in LaLa Land [100%]

Saturday & Sunday – mental switch off

So that means I technically work once a week… hahahahahaha…

Anyhoo, the year has gone by and we are in the second last month of 2008… the building I work in plays the same old carols over and over again which irritates the crap outta me… you can’t seem to escape from it… it is even heard in the toilet… which brings me to another point… how difficult is it for you women to sit and pee into the bowl… you do not have things to handle and yet you can’t aim… God knows all hell will break loose if you were given an apparatus to pee with…

No!!!! I am not talking about the toilet in my building… I am talking about the toilets in the zoo… I do realize the zoo is a dirty and smelly place but that doesn’t mean you should stink the toilet up as well... how different can you be from the animals?

I was there last weekend and boy was it smelly… the 4 legged animals I can understand but how can I justify the doings of the 2 legged animals… a simple gesture of flushing seemed to be difficult for their delicate hands… jeez…

I do wanna blog about that day and attached some pictures but certain someone has yet to send me the pictures… I wonder who???? *twirls hair*

Just wanna say the zoo and the night safari were really enjoyable but tiring… amusing in some instances… Guna knows why….

Okok… am gonna stop boring my readers…

Have a good weekend…

Toodles.....

ps. total random blogging…

I am sometimes amazed by the audacity of some people… they claim to be something else but turn out to be something else… people who know me well enough are there to see what I have been through and what runs through my mind when I am faced with a similar situation… others just think that I have not learnt my lesson… either way, it doesn’t affect me in any way…

I am a strong woman who knows what I am doing and is answerable to myself and God…

So… to all those self – righteous pompous arses who snide what I do, I would like to tell them to shove their high and upright noses up where the sun doesn’t shine cause I don’t really give a rat’s ass of what you think is right and wrong…

Just the other day, I was having a discussion with my friend about the phrase “birds of a feather flock together”… Personally, in general, I think it’s a load of hog wash… before anyone says anything, I would like, for the record, to state “THIS IS MY BLOG AND I WILL OR DO ANYTHING THAT DAMN WELL PLEASES ME”…

So we were saying, going through my life’s experiences, I have changed from a sweet, demure, walk-all-over-me girl to step-on-me-and-you-will-die type… I know such a drastic change isn’t really good for a woman but circumstances have made me this way… I digress…

Coming back to people who think alike and them sticking together… I have gone through several groups and I have noticed that not one of them are close to be alike… a perfect example would be my ex – classmates from UNISA… we were 6 different people from 6 different walks of life and had 6 different personalities… we stuck together and became a “groupie” … we were never alike even after the end of the course… but yet till today we are always in touch via msn, facebook or blogs… so how does the phrase “birds of a feather flock together” come in place in this scenario… I have seen loads of people in my life… from gangsters to perpetual cheaters… I have seen their “groupies” and they are all as sick as they are…

HOWEVER, I know of some people who are in that group but are not like them… so how does the phrase “birds of a feather flock together” come in place… it’s very easy to judge someone but have you ever noticed anyone judging you???? To comment “After all that you have been through, you are still sticking to shit” is majorly easy but have u stopped to take a look at yourself… are you really doing fine and dandy *using nice words*… have u stopped and ask me why am I like this??? No!!!! Since you have not, then I would suggest you stuff your comments somewhere else…

I believe everyone is nice… I allow people to walk over me to a certain extent… push my button and there is hell to pay… so don’t go round assuming that I am stupid… if I were really stupid, I would still be in the shit – hole… I’m not right??? So don’t judge me… I cannot stand people who come round judging my life as though this were some kinda sick competition…

the bottom line is that I have been leading my life for the past 26 year of my life on my own and yes I have had my fair share of falls but that doesn’t mean I have not learnt my lesson… I know what I am doing and am not a 5-year-old kid… I am going to hit my 30s’ for crying out loud… so quit trying to baby me… I have always been stubborn… and I have always been the type where the more someone tells me not to do something without a valid reason, I would do it just to spite you… I have been living my life very well, thank you very much…

So why don’t you gather your stuff and vamoose outta my life ASAP!!!!!!!!!!!!

ps. super random blogging…

pss. am majorly pissed…

psss. damn!!!!! Am still @#$%^*&*&_)*^$^##_)_))$#@#^* pissed…..

Hello then…

I am back again with another list of the requirements I would like my prospective life partner to meet… I am a 26 year old girl who has not been in a relationship for a long time… I would suggest all prospective mates to view this list and MEMORIZE it…

1. Thou shall not control me. I am a grown adult and can make my own decisions. DO NOT impose your ideals onto me….

2. Thou shall not nag. If I needed a nagger, I would have stayed with my mom. She does an excellent job. (FYI: harping on a certain issue too many times is nagging.)

3. Thou shall not force me to what they would like me to do. I would you rather let me decide what I wanna do. Thank you very much.

4. Thou shall talk and let me talk!!!!

5. Thou shall not stifle me. I need my space to breathe. Just because I am in a relationship, that doesn’t mean my social life expires.

6. Thou shall not talk down to me. (brings back to rule no 1: I am so small kid!!!)

7. Thou shall not “baby” me. (believe or not; there is a difference between “baby-ing” and pampering)

8. Thou shall not repeat a word too many times… i.e. okokok… (those who are guilty, do cringe in shame)

9. Thou shall not deny me a good argument… I am no bimbo…

10. Thou shall read this and memorize it… I do not wanna have to repeat myself…

It’s only 4 p.m. I am super bored….

Updates on the job hunting: Still nothing… let’s see in time to come… I so need to move out of this place… coming to work is kinda dreadful… don’t get me wrong… working in the travel industry is fun but working for family is stupidly impossible, especially when the said family member behaves like a child… am training the new gal who knows nuts and has super bad breath….

Still got 2 hours to go… I have been on facebook way too often… playing with my pet and random word games… hahahahaha…

Okok me gtg

Wanna race my pet…

Ciao

Hello,
I have disappeared for a long time.... have been very busy with work and exams... got a few updates before I start ranting and raving....
1. I have been really sick and am still very sick....
2. I have passed my guiding exams and am now the official tourist guide of Singapore....
3. I am still looking for a job....
Anyhoo, there was a case of a girl committing suicide near my place.... It's really sad and I feel for the family... but I think the girl did a stupid thing... By the looks of her friends and boyfriend, she must be in her 20s'... I don't know why she did such a thing...
Common reasons would be for committing suicide would be:
1. Boyfriend/husband problem
2. Money problem
3. Work problem
4. Family problem
Personally, I feel that if one should commit suicide based on the above mentioned reasons, then they must have been living a worthless life...
I have limited amount of friends and these friends have known what I have gone through... but somehow the thought of suicide has never came across in my mind... no matter how shitty things can be...
I think that God has put us here (Earth) for a reason... and we meet people for a reason... some change our lives drastically and some have little impact in our life, no matter who or what walks in our lives, we should be able to face the good times and bad times...
Who are we to end our lives when we never created ourselves... These people who commit suicide, I wonder if they have thought what would happen to their family members when they are gone... I think they are doing the most selfish thing...
My friends have committed suicide and I have seen the way their families cry over their bodies regretting why they have said or done the things they shouldn't have in the first place...
Parents are the ones who bring us into their lives... they mould us into the person they want us to be... in some instances, we turn out otherwise and yet they love us unconditionally... Yes, there are times when they say or do things that hurt us, but have we stopped to think how much hurt we are causing them when we don't turn out to be the way they have dreamed us to be? I know we have never asked to be born but our parents love us unconditionally so why can't we love them the same?
Friends are our support networks after our parents... You don't have the power to choose your parents but you have the power to choose your friends... Your friends should help you and not bring you down in life...
If you have problems, you should confide in friends who should in return give you good advice and not crappy advice...
For instance, if you have family problems, your friend should advise you to talk to your family members and not run away from home...
I have a small group of friends whom I trust and share my problems with...
Boyfriend/husband, they are supposedly our life partners and best friends... but somehow we choose the wrong people to be with... it hurts when the person whom you think/thought is going to be out life partner disappoints you... but that doesn't give you the reason to commit suicide....
We, as women, got to show men that we are their equivalent and not beneath them...
Work and money problems come hand in hand... the magic rule applies "DON'T
SPEND MORE THAN YOU EARN!!!!!!!!"
Then you won't have problems
I do feel for the girl that committed suicide but I still think that there could have been many other ways to solve your problems...
For all those out there reading this and are contemplating to do this cowardice act, do think about the consequences....
I am sure that you don't wanna be scrapped off the pavement with your hands handcuffed????
Do try and speak to friends or call in help lines to talk to random strangers...
Sometimes it is easier to talk to a stranger and not worry about being judged.... trust me...
Alternatively, you can talk to me.... I am the in-your-face crude counselor that would help you see it through.... hahahaha....
Ciao