SHE.HER.

I was at the doctor’s office the other day and while browsing through an old magazine, the following question in the Aunt Agony column caught my eye. Thought I might share this with you….

Dear Irma,

I am a 26 year old girl and have been going out with Guy A for 6 months. We are great together and we love each other (I think, at least I know I love him). However, he has made it clear he doesn’t want to get married to me or to anyone at the moment. He claims to have the “gypsy” blood. I knew he was never going to commit to me and yet I chose to fall in love with him.

Recently, I met Guy B and found that we have many common interests. He is every girl’s knight in shining armor. He is sweet, loving; caring and a whole lot more. Unfortunately, I have been with too many rough nuts to appreciate him. He has fallen in love with me and has told me he wants to spend his life with me. I only know this guy for 2 months and he is professing his love to me. I think it’s ridiculous and a little too soon to make such a decision

I am torn between the 2 guys; one who can commit and one who will leave after a few months.

Any advice?

2 men and a lady

Unfortunately, my number got called up and I had to go into the consultation room. When I came out of the room, I wanted to read the advice given but the magazine had disappeared….

Damn old magazine stealer…. May your kids be born ass-less…

This however got me thinking… are there such situations? How confusing can a relationship be? If you like someone, you got to stick with that person… how can one change their taste in men that easily????

Hmmm….

If it were me advising, I would say:

Dear 2 men and a lady,

Make up your bloody mind!!!!!!!!!

We are talking about love here, not clothes. If you knew Guy A isn’t into commitment, why put yourself in that position in the first place? If you think Guy B is proposing too soon, then tell him off.

Maybe it’s time you look into yourself and ask yourself what you want in life.

It is fun being in a relationship but there are stresses as well. Do you want something stable or are you in just for the thrills of it?

You are 26, still young. You should be deciding which career path you would like to take.

Decide on what you want in life before you let other come in.

If anyone out there has read the article and know what advise was given, do give me a shout out….

To all my Muslim readers,

Selamat Hari Raya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Maaf Zahir dan Batin…… *sorry if i got it wrong*

Ps. I’m off to Geylang Serai…. Gotta find good bargains…

Pss. It’s the first day of Navarathri and I feel like eating ‘tulang’….

Pss. I am sick and only 52 more days ;)

It’s been only 2 months since we chatted on the net;

It’s been only a month since we met;

It’s been only 3 weeks since we kissed;

It’s been only 2 weeks since you said you love me;

It’s only been a week since I’ve given you a chance;

And now you are leaving…

So many things left unsaid…

So many different places left to go…

Thoughts run through my mind….

If I say anything, would it be too hasty….

If I don’t say it, would he know????

Now he is gone, I realized I should have said it all…

The day has come…

I knew you were gonna leave…

I always told myself that I will not let it affect me…

You were supposed to be the “risk”…

That few months when you have been around, you have made me feel special and loved…

You helped me break out of my shell…

Whilst discovering myself, I started falling in love with you…

I knew we had no future together…

As my head screamed, my heart was going otherwise…

And now that you are leaving, I am watching you go…

My heart yells out to you to stay…

All I wanna do is run up to you and tell you not to go…

Ask you why you don’t feel the same…

Where have I done wrong…

I hate you for not loving me…

I hate you for leaving me and not turning back…

I hate you for you cannot commit…

There are so many reasons for me to hate you and to plunge a dagger through your heart…

But there is only ONE reason for me to stand here and wave good bye…

I LOVE YOU LIKE I NEVER HAVE…

Hello,

Hope you like my short story… there should be more to come….

In the meantime, I have to emphasis

THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME!!!!!!

THIS IS A PRODUCT OF MY OVER ACTIVE IMAGINATION

Once upon a time, there lived a girl… she was an average looking girl… she came out into the world, seeking love… pure love… however all she got was abuse, torture and misery… she had decided to give up her search for the right guy when a young man came up to her and asked her for a light… conversation began… friendship developed…she was afraid to meet him though… on the day the young man returned home, they shared a kiss… a kiss like no other… she felt young and foolish again… her stomach curled in delight…she thought she had lost that feeling but it was revived by a strange man…

2 weeks passed and she had not heard from him… she wondered if he had forgotten about her… she then knew that kiss never meant the same for him… she closed the chapter of the dashing young foreign man…

Nearly a month has passed, she get a call… it’s HIM!!!!! The stomach curling comes back… though they don’t talk for long, she feels good… communication was getting stronger… from monthly calls to fortnightly calls to subsequently weekly calls… he told her, he would come back… she waited anxiously for the day he comes…

Finally after nearly six months of waiting, he comes back…. He surprises her by appearing at her office… that night, he comes to her home… her mom meets the guy she has been talking about… they get along fine…

She starts going out with him on a regular basis… every weekend, she rather spend her time with him than anywhere else… he treats her well and she enjoys the attention…

There came a time when she had started calling him her boyfriend… it started being natural for her… unknowingly, she started falling in love with him… this strange and foreign man… many have asked her about the future… she never had an answer…

Months has passed and they went for a trip together… there, they had a long talk about the future… they both realized they want different things… she wanted stability and he couldn’t provide that... she was at a loss… she was in this relationship too deep without realizing it… she decided to never broach on the topic ever again… she knew deep down inside, he would leave… and she would break…

Recently, her friend professed his love for her… he knows of the other guy but is willing to wait, even though he might not be with her…

Now, torn between 2 guys, she has no idea what to do…

Apparently, REALITY was not done with her yet… she found out she was pregnant with Stranger’s child…

On that same day, Stranger told her that he might leave earlier than expected… she knew he was supposed to leave and he was never happy here… however the day came sooner than expected…

Now she don’t know whether she should tell him about her pregnancy or not… she doesn’t want him to stay with her just because she is carrying his baby… neither does she want to raise the child alone…

Her friend wants to be there for her and wants to help her raise the child… she knows that is the wrong thing… he doesn’t have to take responsibility for anything…

She was confused from the start…and now things are just more complicated… what will she ever do????

There’s silence before the storm hits…

that’s the situation going on in my office…Have no idea why and I don’t wanna find out either… betrayal is nasty… especially when it comes from your own family… thank god I’ve got people who love me… am in the mood to write… will do a short story soon…

Ta-ta for now….

It's been quite some time now.... I have this gut feeling that something is gonna go wrong in this company.... well, my guiding examinations is approaching… I’m waiting for it to be over… this may come as a shocker to one and all but I have decided to quit working at the travel agency… I think that it’s time I move on to better prospects… It’s very sad L but I don’t have a choice… I believe in 1 philosophy…. “Either you change yourself to suit the environment or you change the environment to suit yourself”… I’ve tried both ways but unfortunately it’s not working… I’ve been looking for better prospects so if anyone has any job openings, do let me know!!!!!

I’m gonna be here till beginning of next year coz I gotta tie up loose ends…

The list is as follows:

1. Need to decide where I wanna go…

2. Gotta go for some interviews for jobs in that destination…

3. I have yet to complete by graduation project for MDIS…. Yes Veron, I have not completed it…

4. Maybe attend the UNISA graduation….

NO!!!!!!!!!! I am not getting married and migrating anywhere…. Sheesh!!!!! Way too many people asking that!!!! I stand firm on my ground of not getting married!!!!

Moving away from Singapore scares me… but I think this is the best… life here has become stifling and it’s time I move away from things that I don’t wanna get reminded off…

Life’s really strange… loads of stuff has been happening… feel as though everything’s in the fast lane…

Lemme sit down and write my blog…

pheewwww!!!!!!

Now,,,,,, where do I start…

1^st of all I would to give myself a huge pat on my back for passing the STB license exams… I know I’ve blogged about it before but I just wanna do it again…

COZ I CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahahahahahahaha……

Well, 2 weeks back Luke shaved his head… he is now this big white guy with a bulb on his head… he wanted to shave his head due to the heat and I pushed him to the barber shop… it was really funny at first… but I guess I’m now used to it… Mom went off to Hong Kong and when she returned, she left for Bangkok with my brother… haiz… so lucky…

Luke does pamper me so… brought me out for a nice dinner… we went to H.V. for Spanish food and 2 bottles of wine… I drank the most coz he was driving… was kinda high… not that anyone was complaining…

I wanna travel too…..

Anyhoo, the week’s really been crazy with work and all… met some interesting people… they have made a presence in my life… not that I’m complaining… enjoying their company… just loving it…

Brought Luke to one the Kaho’s function last Saturday and boy was that embarrassing… everyone was staring at us… felt weird… Ramesh Jija and Uncle were nice to him… mom made him dance to UP wala and all... it was super funny… white guy dancing to the tunes only… dropped my mom home and we left…

Sunday was his company DnD… was kinda nervous… he told me that there were 800 odd people coming to the DnD… but there was more than that… It was held at the Orchid Country Club… He didn’t drive, which turned out to be a good thing after all… he was drunk… it was really funny… his colleagues, especially Michael, made sure I had a good time… I thought I would not talk much… however, everyone made sure I was never silent…

I was “blushing” most of the time… everyone was teasing me… and all I could do was hide either behind Luke and in the bathroom… I distinctly remember Michael saying, “Angmohs get the best pay and the best chicks!”

It was crazy…

I had to dance on stage…. It was majorly embarrassing… suddenly I was awarded Ms Ley Choon (I think that’s how to spell it) 2008… I don’t even work there… *SUPER EMBARASSING*

Luke was drunk… lucky thing we left the car home… he was oh so happy… it was nice seeing him really unwind… we had to call for a cab… he was mingling around with his boys enjoying himself…

That night ended magically for me… words I thought I would never hear were said… they say drunk men tell no lies…. Well, we shall see how things go…

Very soon, his gypsy blood will get the better of him and I’ll be waving goodbye from the other side of the road... funny how when you think everything is going good and yet you have the nagging feeling that something would go wrong…

It’s like you know what you want and you know what he wants and both are in the same boat when intentions are total opposite…

It’s like venturing out of your comfort zone into the twilight zone, knowing you are going to fall eventually but just don’t know when…

Confusing????

I know I m not…

Anyhoo, I gotta get back to work….

TATA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!