Hey,

the weather is so bloody shitty.....I am at work and all I wanna do is sleep...it would have been great if I were to be at home and my bed with my bolster and Paolo....haiz....anywayz I have my final assessment due next week and I have not prepared anything for it.....I m so gonna go down.... well I’ve been reciting a story in my head and I know that if I don’t jot it down, my head will explode so here goes the story for today......

Do not read my story and associate me with it.... *I’ll sock you*

If it’s about me, it will be stated so there..... *kapish????*

She looked at the phone....she willed it to ring....weird thoughts are running through her mind...what in the world is he up to???? Why has he not called me??? It’s been 3 days since we talked....what the hell is he trying to prove???? She reflects back to their last meeting....he claimed he had fun and all then why is he not calling???? She screams silently.....she picks up the phone wanting to call him but hesitates....why should she call??? Who is he to her anywayz???? Just a friend....so whether he calls or not shouldn't make any difference....she comforted herself with these thoughts....however, her brains were motioning her to go otherwise*funny how that works; why can't the mind and heart work together and come to a mutual understanding???*

she messages him.....wanting to give him a piece of her mind but holds her fingers back and sent him a polite message....he responded....somehow he seem nonchalant....that irked her some more...unfazed, she replied to his messages.....half of her wanted to pluck his hair, follicle by follicle, the other half of her was just glad that he responded....

As she lay on her bed and stared at the ceiling, she though she heard someone call out to her....it was her conscience...questions were being asked and answers were being given....

How can she be with someone when she is with someone else and he is with someone else????

At that moment in time, it's just the 2 of us....

How can she be the other woman when she told herself that she will never be the other woman???

As long as there is no talk about marriage, I’m not the other woman.......

Is she doing the wrong thing????

How can something so wrong feel so right????

Now that she is officially with no one but he is someone, does that make it all right???

Planning didn't get me anywhere and going with the flow seems to be working just fine.......

Being an emotional person, could she untangle her way out of the tangled mess???

Matters of the heart and mind are 2 different issues; me being with him makes me feel better mentally....

If she merely likes him, then why does she look forward to his sms and calls????

Finally an intellectual who will listen to me..........

Conscience walked away dejectedly...

Feeling confident and knowing that her life is in control, she moves on to conquer the world..... she knows she would not break down no matter how bad the circumstances may be....she believes that she is finally stronger and confident.... she thanks her ex for these new-found confidence and strength...if he wasn’t the whiny baby that he was, she would have never found her hidden quality or talent which is to be able to think out of the box and face any problems head on...she is moving along in life, leaving the tortoise version of her behind....no more cowering in the shell...living life precariously and loving every minute of it....

As for the both of them, they were together till he got married....on the eve of his wedding day, they bid each other adieu and went their separate ways......