random - ness

She sits by the phone in anticipation.........
silently she wills it to ring.........
it’s been 12 hours since he last called......
where is he?
Why hasn't he called?
its not like him to not call me......
thoughts are racing in her mind....
hope nothing bad has happened to him.....
I just want him to be fine...
the silence becomes deafening.....
She is screaming inside but displays a cool composure......
the phone rings piercing through the silence...
Girl: Hello???
Voice: Hello, I'm calling from the police station. Can I know who's looking for Ruben?
Girl: I'm his fiancée......been trying to reach him.....can I know where he is?
Voice: Well............ I'm sorry to inform you that Ruben has met with an accident and is no longer around...... (she drops the phone)
Voice: hello......hello..........
she silently weeps.....
Her body shuddering from the silent sobs........
She looks up and screams his name........
Random thoughts run through her mind.....
"Why????????????????
Why??????????????"
"there are so many things left unsaid; so many things to do"
"we have never meant harm to anyone then why must my life be in shambles????????????????"
she passes out........
She finds herself in a breezy, hazy pier.......
she looks around and she finds him.....
He looks good and is smiling at her......
he beckons her to come.....
She runs towards him......
however she seems to be getting no where near him.....
she stops running and looks at him......
there were so many questions she wanted to ask him......
but the look in his eyes said it all.....
"I know you are in a peaceful place and I know that you wanted to tell me that"
"don't worry, I will be the way you wanted me to be and will not allow myself to go back to the way I was"
he didn't say anything.....
just smiled and he started to fade away......
she wakes up and starts making the arrangements for his funeral.......
she was calm through the whole process....
everyone was shocked......
that night after his cremations, he came to her......
this time he hugged her and told her that he was proud of her....
he wanted her to take care of herself as well his mom....
he also told her that he would return....
she kept on asking him “how?” and “when?” but he only smiled.........



1 month later, she found out that she was pregnant.........


































It's been 2 years.....
She is now a proud mother of an active toddler.......
every time she looks at she sees him......
the mischievous twinkle in his eyes.......
though he is far away, she feels his presence......
every night, when she puts him to sleep, she could feel HIM around.....
She smiles to herself.......
She knows.......