She thought he was the one…….
She gave her all…..
They had a good time together…..
She used to wait for him to finish work and they would head home together….
She stayed at his place most of the time……
Life was perfect……
Whipping up dishes wee hours of the morning to feed him, watching him sleep, making sure he was always well fed…..
She was in love….
She thought she was in bliss……
Though he had never said anything to her, she could feel his reciprocating…..
Until…………













GIRL : “Where have you been? Why are you ignoring my calls?”

BOY : “I think we are getting too close for my comfort. I think you are a great girl but I’m just not ready to be in a relationship just yet.”

GIRL : “Are you doing this to me because of the silly argument we had? Ok, I’m sorry. You were right. Happy?”

BOY : “Babe, don’t make this hard. I gotta go. See ya around.”

Toot………….toot…………toot……..

She stares at the phone………..
She places the phone on the coffee table and went on with her daily duties……….
That night, she sat down and watched the phone on the table………
She tried to call him but he ignored his calls………
SMSs’ were dealt with the same fate…….
This ordeal went on for 2 weeks….
She finally broke down 1 month later…….
She cried her eyes out and after that; she vowed she would not allow any man take advantage of her……








But alas, fate dealt her with another cruel blow…….









She started vomiting 1 month later…….
The doctor congratulated her on her pregnancy but all she could feel was dread……..

She knew the child was his but how was she gonna tell him that?



GIRL : “Hi!!! Are you busy?”

BOY : “Hey babe!!!!!!!! How have you been? Nah, am not busy…. Just hanging out with a group of friends.”

GIRL : “I’m pregnant…. The baby is ours. I really don’t know what to do. I’m so confused. Can we meet?”

BOY : “WHAT PREGNANT?????????? Come on babe, stop joking. You told me it was safe. Anyway it’s been a month since we met; how do you know its mine?”

GIRL : “It’s yours because unlike you, I’ve spent the last 1 month thinking of you and no one else. How can you ask me this question? After all that I have done for you and this is what you have to say to me?”

BOY : “I don’t care what you do. To me, we were just 2 people in lust and nothing else. Anyway I gotta go…. Do me a favor and don’t call me again.”







She felt as though she had her heart ripped out of her body……..
What was she to do?
She went for an abortion the following week……
She killed herself as well as memories of him………










1 year later…………








Girl finally plucks the courage and goes on a blind date her friends had arranged for her...
Surprisingly, she had a good time…….
As the hours became days, days become months, she finally decides to accept him as a “BOYFRIEND”
They were happy…..
She was yet again in a state of bliss, or so she thought……

One day he calls her and asks her to meet him at the park near his place……
She got frantic and started to have negative thoughts………
She felt history repeating itself……………















GIRL : “Hello……… How was your day?”

BF : “It has been hectic but good. How about you?”

GIRL : “So far so good. Tell me, why did you call me her?”

BF : “Well, it’s been a year since we got together and there has been something on my mind that’s been bugging me. Can I ask you something?”

GIRL : “Of course you can.”

BF : “When I first met you, I liked you but found you cynical. I guess you must have been pretty bruised up in life.”

GIRL : “Well…….”

BF : “Don’t worry, you can tell me everything.”

She told him whatever happened before she met him.

BF : “Oh I see. I’m sorry for all that happened to you. I really don’t know what to say. Have you eaten? Why don’t we go we go dinner? I know of this new restaurant that had just opened.”

GIRL : “It’s ok……. I think I shall head home…… am pretty tired.”

BF : “Ok then. You take care. Will call you later. Bye!!!!!”

GIRL : “Bye……..”







She went back home confused………
She thought all of going great and now he might back away…….
She started to reproach herself………..
He never called her……….





2 weeks later………..






She got an internet sms asking her to come to ABC restaurant at 6.30pm………
She was shocked because whoever sent that sms seemed to know that was her favorite restaurant……..
She contemplated whether to go or not but curiosity got the better of her……..










6.30pm



She arrived at the restaurant and found it empty………
A waiter asked her to have a seat and enquired whether she would like her wine to be served……..
She asked who had ordered the wine but the waiter refused to tell her anything……
Two hours later, as she stood up to leave, she heard someone calling her name…….
She turned and saw him……
He was carrying a bouquet of white lilies…….






GIRL : “Were you the one who messaged me?”

BF : “Yup…. It was me. Were you shocked?”

GIRL : “Yea, very shocked. Why did you call me for?”

BF : “Well, I’ve thinking about you and me. After what you told me, I was shocked but confused. I needed some time to think…..”

GIRL : “Well, if you called me here to break up, then I think you are wasting your time. I understood it that day itself.”

BF : “NO…… You are mistaken.”

BF : “I’ve got 101 reasons not to be with you and only 1 reason to be with you. I realized that the 1 reason I have to be with you is far more superior to all the reasons to be without you.”

GIRL : “And that one reason is?”

BF : “I love you. That reason justifies everything else. Marry me!!!!!!!!!!!!”

She saw the ring. It was a simple band but she could feel the love.

GIRL : “Yes, I will marry you.”

Yes, she told herself…….

I AM NOW IN BLISS

I was away for a business trip over the CNY holidays………
On Sunday, Siva called me and informed that Ranjit was no longer around.........
I could not believe it………
Ranjit was like the older brother I never had………
His Vadivelu's likeness, his tendency to play Saloma Salo, his ability to make everyone laugh......
I first met Ranjit thru Siva in N9....
He was a resident DJ there......
Initially, Ranjit was pretty formal with me but as time went by we got closer………
He would bring his gf out with us and we would have a great time together…………
As responsibilities as well as work load grew, we started to meet less often but were always in touch……………
His sarcasm was somehow refreshing in a weird way………
On the day he left us, he was supposed to meet Siva but that was not to be……
He was working 2 - 3 jobs so that he was able to marry his sweetheart of 7 years this year…………
Siva and I were worried about him and his lack of sleep but he assured us that he was fine…….
His loss has made me realize the fragility of life and how lightly we take life……
My heart goes out to his mom – he was her ray of light, her only son, and yet it was extinguished before her……
I was unable to attend the funeral because I had sustained an injury on my right leg, which I realized much later was a hairline fracture, but from what I heard, his father was ONE heartless man……
*am not gonna go into details – for those who were there and saw whateva went on should know*
my heart goes out to Revathi – he used to talk to me about her, her past and how hard he tried to make her be the person she is today………
I, personally was neva close to her but any case I always emphasized to Ranjit and her that we could always hang out together……
In fact, he always wanted us girls to be close……
Alas, he was never meant to be………
I really hope that she would be strong and move on to be the person he wanted her to be………
Her dream or rather, their dream was that she would have her own beauty shop eventually……
I hope that at this point of time, her vulnerability would not be taken advantage of in any way…………

I now thank God for everyday I live………
No matter how tough life may be, how many fights we go through with our loved ones, we should always thank God for being able to live another day………
I stop asking myself why I am alive ‘coz I now know I’ve put on this earth for a reason………
Ranjit, no matter where you are, I won’t let you down………
I know what I promised you and believe me, I will do it………
Somehow as I sit and type this, I feel you looking over my shoulder………
You will be missed my dear friend………